Ok, so i am experiencing major burn out with my fucking treatment regimen for Lyme Disease and all my other bugs. i keep doing everything according to my doctor's instructions but am NOT seeing much improvement at all! i feel like a gerbil on a fucking treadmill who runs in circles, never to really get anywhere. The only real difference between me and the little gerbil is that he/she does not have the brain capacity to know that he/she is not going anywhere! i am so very discouraged and feel sicker than ever at this point in my life. My cognitive has worsened over the past couple of weeks where i am inversing letters when i type as if i am dyslexic. i have hit a wall, which is NOT the first time in my nearly 4 years since first being diagnosed with Lyme Disease and Babesiosis. The thing is, we are not cookie cutter beings, so genetic makeup and environmental conditions affect each of us differently. We are each unique like a snowflake! So, treatments vary with each individual person in length and effectiveness. We think this enemy invaded my body when i was a child, so i am in the chronic stage, which makes it more difficult and longer to treat. i am SO sick and tired of being sick and tired! i can't take much more of this. G-D, if you do indeed listen, then PLEASE hear my anguish and HELP ME!
Below is a photo of all my medicines, supplements, and homeopathics i am taking. You can see a small inkling as to why i am so burned out. i do this regimen EVERY FUCKING DAY! Every week Katryna is so kind to help me by filling my HUGE ASS pill box, which is not full at the moment. It's close to 100 pills i take everyday PLUS the liquid shots once a day. Some meds have to be taken on an empty stomach, while others have to be taken with food. i am not on antibiotics right now as my doctor has me come up to her office in Northern Virginia (Fairfax) for IV Infusions of minerals and homeopathics and IV chelation therapy for heavy metal toxicity, that usually lasts AT LEAST 3 hours. So, in addition to all of these meds/supplements, et al., i get stuck with an IV for 3 hours twice a week. (NOTE: For the past 2 months i have been on hiatus from the TWICE WEEKLY IV treatments. i will befin again in February.) So hopefully, i have been able to give you a small glimpse into my Lyme infested world. As i have said before, if it weren't for Katryna being in my life, i am not sure i'd have any motivation to still be here. i guess in some ways G-D is listening!
