Existential Punk

'Shot In The Back Of The Head' Video From Moby

Video created for moby's newest single by film director David Lynch. VERY COOL!

Wait For Me

moby's newest album, 'Wait For Me' will release June 30th. i CAN'T wait!

'i started working on the album about a year ago, and the creative impetus behind the record was hearing a david lynch speech at bafta, in the uk.

david was talking about creativity, and to paraphrase, about how creativity in and of itself, and without market pressures, is fine and good.

it seems as if too often an artists or musicians or writers creative output is judged by how well it accommodates the marketplace, and how much market share it commands and how much money it generates.

in making this record i wanted to focus on making something that i loved, without really being concerned about how it might be received by the marketplace. as a result it's a quieter and more melodic and more mournful and more personal record than some of the records i've made in the past.

it's also, for better or worse, all homemade, in that i recorded it at home with my friends and drew the artwork with a black sharpie on copy paper.'

Read the rest at moby's redesigned site.

Essence Of The Liberal Outlook According To Bertrand Russell

"The essence of the Liberal outlook lies not in what opinions are held, but in how they are held: instead of being held dogmatically, they are held tentatively, and with a consciousness that new evidence may at any moment lead to their abandonment."

    -Bertrand Russell

i LOVE cool and interesting quotes and i collect them all the time. Often i add them to my Apple email program as rotating signatures at the end of my emails. Bertrand Russell's quote above really spoke to me when i found it recently on someone's blog. i like what he says but i also can see some liberals being just as dogmatic about their beliefs as those on the right/conservative side of the spectrum who hold tightly to their fundamental beliefs. i think his quote is a great attitude for ALL human beings to aspire to because none of us has a monopoly on truth and what is the correct way to believe. i am not out to change people's minds but to challenge ALL of us, INCLUDING myself, that none of us has a monopoly on truth and that we must hold our opinions lightly! What do you think?

Something Beautiful Podcast, Part 2 of 2

My good friend, Thomas AKA Heaphonaught, has interviewed me for the Something Beautiful Podcast. Last week Part 1 went up and this week Part 2 is up. Enjoy!

'Jesus, Interrupted' By Bart Ehrman

A HUGE thanks to Mike Morrell at theOoze.com for inviting me to be a part of the Viral Bloggers series from theOoze.com where we read and review books. i am excitedly awaiting the arrival of my copy of Bart Ehrman's new book, 'Jesus, Interrupted: Revealing the Hidden Contradictions in the Bible (And Why We Don't Know About Them)'. Harper Collins, Ehrman's publisher, is kind enough to send out several copies for bloggers to review. Later this month i will be posting a review. Here is Ehrman talking abut his new book:

Something Beautiful Podcast, Part 1 Of 2

My good friend, Thomas AKA Heaphonaught, has interviewed me for the Something Beautiful Podcast. This week Part 1 is up and next week Part 2 will go up. Enjoy!

Turning 40

Today, at 1.21 p.m., i leave my 30's and begin the decade of my 40's. In some ways i am ok with turning 40, hoping this decade to be far better than my 20's and 30's. Possibilities are always endless in some ways. On the other side i am having existential angst because i do not feel i have accomplished all that much in my life. i have a horrible chronic illness that affects my thinking and my life on a physical level that limits me a lot. Yet, i came to peace with my sexuality in my late 30's and have a fantastic wife who i am eternally grateful for coming into my life and enriching it everyday. i have so much i want to do but am limited by illnes, insecurities and fear of failure. i really want to write my memoir but feel i do not have the creativity to portray my life in words. A friend sat down with me and helped me organize some stuff but then i get gripped with fear and a loss of where to begin. Sometimes it literally hurts to try and form words. Pete Rollins, while here in Richmond, advised me to just try and write 500 words a day. He siad that is an average blog post length. GREAT advice i thought. Yet, i still have not done anything. Sometimes with my illness and the limitations it places on my life i feel like such a waste of space. i do not want to die or kill myself. i just feel like i am just existing and find it pretty boring. i have a great wife, great friends in person and on line, i have a roof over my head, clothers, great dawgs, a computer, etc., and i AM VERY GRATEFUL! Turning 40 just slams me and shows me half my life is over. i sometimes feel like a tick filled with blood ready to explode with all that i feel inside and want to do and express and accomplish. i have to be the initiator but sometimes i need help. i cry out to G-D but sometimes i feel like this is futile. Prayer to me feels like a crap shoot at times. Maybe G-D will answer and maybe G-D won't. i do not understand the intricacies of G-D's workings in our lives. Many good people have told me that 40's are awesome and a great time. i believe for them that is true. i hope my 40's a great but i get scared that nothing much will change. i have kind of given up on really progressing in healing of my Lyme Disease. i am kind of going through a depression and grieving over it. So, that is where i am at.