Existential Punk

Trapped

Trapped

by Adele Sakler

tumbling along like a tumbleweed

roving over the sun-drenched desert

acting all angry,

peppered with negativity

peppered with negativity,

expecting the worst

days of my life are

buoyant with unsinkable

yelling.

negative thoughts

engulf,

grabbing me and

agitating my

true self until

i no longer

value the truth.

i'm way

too

young to drown in such negativity.

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Odysseys

Odysseys

by Adele Sakler

odysseys

drop

you

squarely,

squarely

evermore

yearning.

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Gramps

Gramps

by Adele Sakler

he smelled of worn aftershave and sweet tobacco.

climbing into his lap and enveloping my arms around his flannel shirt

helped me to feel at home and safe.

resting my head upon his chest, listening to his heart beat and

watching his chest heave up and down, i sat there wishing

to never escape his warm embrace.

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Fear

Fear

by Adele Sakler

for too long,

everyday i've lived in

absolute fear of

racing and never finishing.

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Rain Soaked

Rain Soaked

by Adele Sakler

for a long time, as

each year of my life has passed, i have

assimilated fear and

rejection of myself, acting as an

outcast.

fearful of failure but

wishing i could express the

rain soaked, raw emotions

inside my

timid being,

not knowing how to let

go and just write.

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Liminal Spaces

Liminal Spaces

by Adele Sakler

limping along

i trudge through this phase of

my life looking for

insight into all the unanswered questions

nigh as time draws near i feel some

answers are approaching, a

liminal space where

spades can dig out the

pain and wounding.

away with you

cunning lies and

everlasting harm

sucking the life out from under my skin.

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Full As A Tick

Full As A Tick

by Adele Sakler

fuck this lyme disease

under my skin

living off of my

life.

ask not if it could enter my body,

shattering my life

as i've never really known.

toxic bacteria

infecting my entire being, making me

crazy and i'm wanting to

kick your ass.

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Cross Over The Bridge

Thankfully i am no longer in a hopeless place nor feeling suicidal. My new med is working so far minus a little bit of lingering depression. i was inspired to face my demon of wanting to commit suicide and show that i can overcome! Suicide is not the answer. Choosing life is the answer i am fighting for as i battle this 'demon' of depression. ( i don't believe in literal demons, but metaphorical ones!)

Cross Over The Bridge

by Adele Sakler

Sometimes suicide seems like the only option

until one realizes it's so defeating and final.

cross over the bridge and

in your tracks

drop the fantasy of

everlasting peace.

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Swinging Monkey

This is my very first attempt at writing a haiku. It's a little silly and trite, but do indulge me! This was difficult to write and maybe i just need more practice! Or, maybe i should stop writing haiku's while i'm ahead of the game!

Swinging Monkey

by Adele Sakler

i like the monkey

as he swings from tree to tree

singing happily.

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My Heart Hurts

Moby's song 'Why Does My Heart Hurt So bad' inspired this poem.

My Heart Hurts

by Adele Sakler

when my mind thinks of you,

hurt wells up in the deepest recesses of my heart, and

yells out loud, 'stop

doling out your religious platitudes!'

of course it's all you know,

especially

since you don't know me at all.

My head spins and checks out as

you piously

heap your religious attitudes into my

ears

and

run your mouth as 

though you think i'm really

hearing you

unload on me.

rhapsodize if you must,

to feel good about yourself.

such talk is nothing but an

obituary to a religion i know longer

believe in or

ascribe to on this particular

day.

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